I was hoping to love him. I was hoping to go back to that place again. But I can't help to think that I've given him the best of me and gotten nothing in return.
Maybe I want to much... or maybe, just maybe I've not gotten anything. At all. He's off doing whatever it is that he does. Good for him. I lost a good man, because of him. But I suppose being a singelton isn't all that bad. When you get used to it at least.
I need to find serenity in me. Peace and quiet... I needed to lose weight, I lost him and with that I became 200 pounds lighter.
Soon I'll deal with the smoking and then I'll get on with my life. I need a hobby and new people in my life. But first, I need to untie my hands. And get on with all...
But you can't judge a book... looking at the cover. You can't love someone while messing with another!
-Lester
